Happy Easter

Let the Battle Begin

I find this to be 100% true but sometimes difficult to remember.

Midnight Phone Conversations

My dreams for my future are so bright. I'm scared I won't have the courage to chase them.

Bridezilla vs. the Average Human.

If I'm invited to a wedding and accept, but then later find out that neither the bride nor the groom actually want me to attend, do I still go? It puts me in a strange position. Was I invited out of guilt? What have I don that's so offensive? I've never had any inappropriate relations with the groom and to my memory, I cannot remember offending the bride. Weddings are like soap operas, I swear.

All Girls have Claws

 

What the What?

Today was just disappointing. I ate too much and swam around in a giant pool of self-pity. 

On the upside, I'm watching this Irish movie called Ondine starring the very handsome and badly broken Colin Farrel. Yum. 

Limitless

Dressed in Golden Thread

I have been doing a little bit of everything lately. This past weekend I turned 23 which is insane. Every birthday I am surprised I made it another year since I fully expected to be dead by now. Happy Birthday!

I am going on a not-date with a man-child. I told him I don't date which is mostly true. The other truth is that I'm scared of intimacy and create illogical reasons as to why a person wouldn't want to date me. It's really self-centered and arrogant to assume my level of inadequacy is so great that I am planes below everyone else.  I honestly believe I would be the greatest girlfriend if I just made the leap and stopped being so neurotic. I just think too much. 

Tomorrow I have a subbing interview with the principle of the elementary school I attended. Cross my fingers. This afternoon I've been working on an ePortfolio to impress potential school systems.

I'm also reading this great book called The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning. I think my biggest misstep in my faith is that I cannot accept the concept of "grace". While I hear sermons about grace through faith, I cannot believe that Jesus would give me the gift of salvation for free. I believe a lot of my spiritual scars would be lifted if I could get over this hurdle. Well see how the rest of the book reads.