I am going on a not-date with a man-child. I told him I don't date which is mostly true. The other truth is that I'm scared of intimacy and create illogical reasons as to why a person wouldn't want to date me. It's really self-centered and arrogant to assume my level of inadequacy is so great that I am planes below everyone else. I honestly believe I would be the greatest girlfriend if I just made the leap and stopped being so neurotic. I just think too much.
Tomorrow I have a subbing interview with the principle of the elementary school I attended. Cross my fingers. This afternoon I've been working on an ePortfolio to impress potential school systems.
I'm also reading this great book called The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning. I think my biggest misstep in my faith is that I cannot accept the concept of "grace". While I hear sermons about grace through faith, I cannot believe that Jesus would give me the gift of salvation for free. I believe a lot of my spiritual scars would be lifted if I could get over this hurdle. Well see how the rest of the book reads.
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