I keep the telephone of my mind open to peace, harmony, health, love and abundance. Then, whenever doubt, anxiety or fear try to call me, they keep getting a busy signal - and soon they'll forget my number. ~Edith Armstrong
Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight. ~Benjamin Franklin
Real difficulties can be overcome, it is only the imaginary ones that are unconquerable. ~Theodore N. Vail
Update: The interview went well and I made it to round 2. In this round I have to teach a twenty minute lesson in Language Arts to a classroom of live fourth graders while the principle watches. I'm not intimidated by the teaching because I KNOW I can teach. I'm nervous about the documentation of the lesson. Since I earned my degree out of my home state, I'm not familiar with the education format and guidelines. I'm praying the principle mostly pays attention to how I interact with children and less about my paperwork. I'm going to do a lesson about Shel Silverstein and cross my fingers.
"Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it."- Bill Cosby
By nature, I'm a bit flighty. Hence, the necessity of a list. When I was in school, a list held my weeks together. I wrote everything down on a big, yellow notepad. There is nothing more satisfying than crossing things off on a list.
The List
[ ] Join the Peace Crops. I think this would be most beneficial in creating a more well-rounded and responsible me. Furthermore, I want to travel.
[ ] Unpack all things from the garage from college. This would not only be a personal victory, but would please the parents.
[ ] Lose 20 lbs. This has been a struggle since I hit puberty in sixth grade. Am I beautiful just the way I am? Duh. Would I be 10x hotter with less jelly? Most definitely.
[ ] Finish half marathon. I signed up last night. Business goes down the first of May. I am currently up to four miles on the treadmill. Uew-Rah.
[ ] Start substitute teaching. This has been a battle for around a month. Paperwork is a tool of the Devil. Until all the paperwork is processed, I don't step foot in a classroom.
[ ] Purchase a kitten. I am hopelessly allergic, but they're just so darn cute.
[ ] Pull my life together. How do I accomplish this...?
Not too shabby. Let's see how this pans out.
I am 22 years old.
I graduated from The University of X in December 2010.
Now what do I do?
I feel my insecurities are not so uncommon.
Why not share them?
I have been graduated for two-ish months. I work minimum wage with spoiled children at Little Monsters Inc (not it's real name). I like my job and very thankful for the opportunity to work.
However, this gig is not a career maker. These two months are quickly going to turn into four, six, ect. Something must be done or I will become a lifer. I do not want my daily ritual to consist of wiping the baby puke from my cardigan or putting together a train set in as many intricate patterns as I can think of to amuse the kiddies.
But What I Really Want to Do is Save the World
I'm young and idealistic and single. Why can't I pack my bags, load a plane, and take off? Ah that's right, I take alternative medicine not commonly found in all areas of Europe, I have $ZZ,ooo in student loans, my mother would sob, ect. *Sigh*
Being a responsible citizen blows.
Marriage is not an Escape Plan at the Moment.
Despite popular belief, not every young lady is looking for a MRS. degree when she goes to university. I was clever. I studied hard and avoided unwanted pregnancies. I graduated with a 3.7 GPA, top marks, and accolades. Guess what?
Nobody cares. I have zero sense of where my life is taking me. I'm very unattached and yet I have pangs of envy over friends getting hitched. Do I want a ring? No. Would it be nice to have something resembling a road map to where my destiny is heading? Yes. Would it be even better if I had a passenger to take with me along for the ride and be there for me when I'm upset? [insert husband here]
What I really need to do is make a list of what I want to accomplish and go from there. Next entry will be my list.
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