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My smart friend told me that every once in a while you should sit down and count your blessings of the day. 

1. My bestie got married this weekend to one of the best guys I know.

2. My maid of honor speech rocked.

3. Yesterday I had a fun day with friends at a rock quarry.

4. Work was canceled tomorrow so I can spend the whole day applying for jobs.

5. My freckles are out in full force because of the summer sun.

 

From Light to Dark

When I started my education in 2006, I had no idea there would be so few opportunities in 2011. I've been avoiding reading the newspapers for months now because I prefer to remain oblivious to the job crisis. However, this morning the front page was all about the budget cuts for schools. 


I read the article. Mistake. 
Every surrounding school system is making huge cuts. It's across the country, but it's no less unsettling. I applied to a school on Friday and read in this article that the school I applied to is not only cutting X amount of jobs, but they are also not hiring anymore faculty for the 2012 school year.


What the what?! 


However, I can't worry about this. Or that. If I start thinking in the negatives, I'll think myself into a hole. The world tells you they're aren't possibilities, but there are. It's about creating them yourself and keeping your eyes open. I might not get a job for the Fall. That is a reality, but I must maintain a sense of hope for the future. If I don't, I will become a sorry mess of a human.

Pants are Always Optional.

The last two days have been very productive. I inquired to three more school districts about subbing. I took in some final paperwork to my local school system. I also managed to devour an entire avocado by myself. I am successful!

Let's talk about love. I have three friends getting married this summer. Last summer I had two friends get hitched. I think taking the leap into marriage is wonderful if you're prepared for it. However, I don't think many people are. I think couples focus on the wedding more so than the big picture. The big picture means forever. Everyone gets a different love story. Sometimes they end well and sometimes they don't. Since mine has yet to begin, I would like to think it's going to be filled with a handsome, broad shouldered, foreigner. Daydreaming. But I would also settle for something else.[See Below] 

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Thunder Clap

You have those days where you wake up late and think to yourself, "The day is shot. Blurg! I was going to accomplish so much more!" This day started like that. I blame it on the morning thunderstorm. I love sleeping during those.

Long story short, I received an excellent job lead. It's a type of position that I could really excel in, geared towards the degree I graduated with. I sent this woman my resume. We're having a phone meeting today at 3:30 to discuss the details. 

The future is a scary thing. I don't want to move forward but I'm afraid of being left behind, and even more fearful of not progressing at all. Because of my need to be perfect, I tend to over-think all my moves. I'm not one of those lucky people who can just toss life into a can, shake it up, and watch things explode. I like having a plan. Plans are safe and neat and controllable.

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This is My Life.

I am 22 years old.
I graduated from The University of X in December 2010.
Now what do I do?

I feel my insecurities are not so uncommon.
Why not share them?

I have been graduated for two-ish months. I work minimum wage with spoiled children at Little Monsters Inc (not it's real name). I like my job and very thankful for the opportunity to work.

However, this gig is not a career maker. These two months are quickly going to turn into four, six, ect. Something must be done or I will become a lifer. I do not want my daily ritual to consist of wiping the baby puke from my cardigan or putting together a train set in as many intricate patterns as I can think of to amuse the kiddies.

But What I Really Want to Do is Save the World

I'm young and idealistic and single. Why can't I pack my bags, load a plane, and take off? Ah that's right, I take alternative medicine not commonly found in all areas of Europe, I have $ZZ,ooo in student loans, my mother would sob, ect. *Sigh*
Being a responsible citizen blows.

Marriage is not an Escape Plan at the Moment.

Despite popular belief, not every young lady is looking for a MRS. degree when she goes to university. I was clever. I studied hard and avoided unwanted pregnancies. I graduated with a 3.7 GPA, top marks, and accolades. Guess what?

Nobody cares. I have zero sense of where my life is taking me. I'm very unattached and yet I have pangs of envy over friends getting hitched. Do I want a ring? No. Would it be nice to have something resembling a road map to where my destiny is heading? Yes. Would it be even better if I had a passenger to take with me along for the ride and be there for me when I'm upset? [insert husband here] 
What I really need to do is make a list of what I want to accomplish and go from there. Next entry will be my list.

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