I got a new job which is overwhelming and exciting. It's not the job I was going for, but it will do for now. I'm not a perfectionist, but when it comes to working- I have to be the best. I get incredibly offended when someone questions my work ethic. It's one of my buttons. This new job is a great stepping stone, but I'm going to keep job searching.
My grandpa is being moved to an Alzheimer's facility eight hours away from my home. I haven't thought about it because breaks my heart. I am a grandpa's girl and for the past six years I've watched his mind slowly go. I always great him with, "Hey Handsome!" and he replies with, "Hey Bebe!". But now it's not like that. I've been applying to jobs near where he would be. I don't want him to be forgotten.
I love my freckles. I have a big one on my nose that I think gives me character. When I first got it my cousin tried to pick it off claiming it was chocolate from the cookies we were eating. False. I like them and they like me. During summer, they come out in full force and cover my shoulders.
I love my forehead. It's more like a fivehead. I'm like a white Tyra Banks. I think it's regal and impressive. How many people can say they can balance a plate of food on their forehead? Not many, but this girl can!
I love my smile. Men sometimes stutter when I smile at them and I like that. It's kind of like a deer in headlight sort of moment. It temporarily confuses them and I can see the gears working as they try to think of something clever to say so I keep smiling.
All of the things above might be false. Friends might read this and scoff. However, does anyone's opinion really matter concerning how we view ourselves? Nope. I could name all the things I don't like about myself but what good would that do? If you're having a bad body moment (as we all do), do this exercise. And then do it again and again until the negative thoughts go away. Beauty has many faces.
Another wedding. Another great time. I like going to weddings but I don't get emotional about them. It's happy, why cry?
Anyway, it has me thinking about the future. And I'm so excited to find someone to love. Not in that crazy way that some girls get themselves into. Not like the frantic, worrying, I must find a mate this month sort of way. I just see the happiness my friends have and get excited about maybe having something like that someday.
My smart friend told me that every once in a while you should sit down and count your blessings of the day.
1. My bestie got married this weekend to one of the best guys I know.
2. My maid of honor speech rocked.
3. Yesterday I had a fun day with friends at a rock quarry.
4. Work was canceled tomorrow so I can spend the whole day applying for jobs.
5. My freckles are out in full force because of the summer sun.
