A Few Thoughts for the Troubled Mind.

I keep the telephone of my mind open to peace, harmony, health, love and abundance.  Then, whenever doubt, anxiety or fear try to call me, they keep getting a busy signal - and soon they'll forget my number.  ~Edith Armstrong


Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen.  Keep in the sunlight.  ~Benjamin Franklin


Real difficulties can be overcome, it is only the imaginary ones that are unconquerable.  ~Theodore N. Vail

Confessional

1. I hate horses. I always have. For all the times my little friends would wistfully speak about receiving a pony on their birthdays, I was the one making glue factory jokes under my breath. And a pony for your birthday? Puh-leaze. Lame.  

It's a Rash!

I have a final interview on Tuesday with the only school that has given me the time of day since I sent out resumes. It will be a faculty interview with four other members who work for this particular school.


I really want this.


I also really want to trust God with this decision. That is a little tricky. I have a phobia that God hates me. I've never done anything worth being hated for, but it's a childhood fear that continues to manifest itself in my adult life. I perceive God has this giant man siting in the sky waiting to step on me. It's a totally unrealistic fear that should probably be addressed by a therapist or religious life coach. It's very difficult to trust in a being you believe wants to smite you.


That being said, I guess that's why I'm more of a realist than my friends care for; A glass half empty type of person, which is entirely awful since I despise individuals like that. I told myself that I would start memorizing scripture that would repel this type of thinking. Let's see if I can find one...


Romans 15:13 "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." 


Perfect. 

  

A Swelling Balloon

I don't get headaches very often. Practically never. However, this morning I woke up with one. It feels like there is a balloon behind my right eye that is slowly inflating and deflating. 

It should also be noted that I am on vacation and the presence of said headache is decreasing the Fun Factor. There's a cute French family outside my balcony playing in the ocean. Their daughter is the picture of Parisian heritage with her blonde hair and fashionable swimwear. The daughter, age 4-5, is strutting around the sand as if she's the queen. I like watching them because they are very cute and very European. 


The beach is the best place to people watch. Everyone is very relaxed and time is never an issue.  

For the love of the Sun

If I lived near the ocean, I would want for nothing. 

12:30 + Me + Shel Silverstein

Update: The interview went well and I made it to round 2. In this round I have to teach a twenty minute lesson in Language Arts to a classroom of live fourth graders while the principle watches. I'm not intimidated by the teaching because I KNOW I can teach. I'm nervous about the documentation of the lesson. Since I earned my degree out of my home state, I'm not familiar with the education format and guidelines. I'm praying the principle mostly pays attention to how I interact with children and less about my paperwork. I'm going to do a lesson about Shel Silverstein and cross my fingers. 

 

The Avocado Welcomes You

My friends tease me because I love peculiar things. For example, I like taking avocados with me to eateries. I just think most foods can be complimented by slices of avocado: hamburgers, all sandwiches, potatoes chips ect. Restaurants charge you for slices of avocado or worse, they don't even have them! I encourage everyone to accessorize with a healthy avocado.

 

Now Freak Out and Panic.

It would be nice if American audiences truly believed in the beauty of curvy women. 

Interview tomorrow.

I have an interview tomorrow at 8:30. Everyone pray for me. I want this job.

Itchy Eyes

 When the world says, "Give up,"

Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
~Author Unknown

Spencer, You Found Me

From Light to Dark

When I started my education in 2006, I had no idea there would be so few opportunities in 2011. I've been avoiding reading the newspapers for months now because I prefer to remain oblivious to the job crisis. However, this morning the front page was all about the budget cuts for schools. 


I read the article. Mistake. 
Every surrounding school system is making huge cuts. It's across the country, but it's no less unsettling. I applied to a school on Friday and read in this article that the school I applied to is not only cutting X amount of jobs, but they are also not hiring anymore faculty for the 2012 school year.


What the what?! 


However, I can't worry about this. Or that. If I start thinking in the negatives, I'll think myself into a hole. The world tells you they're aren't possibilities, but there are. It's about creating them yourself and keeping your eyes open. I might not get a job for the Fall. That is a reality, but I must maintain a sense of hope for the future. If I don't, I will become a sorry mess of a human.

Today I was feeling scared of my potential

 "Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it."- Bill Cosby